All in My Mind and No One Will Listen

Danny Cole

Inspiring Voices, Aug 30, 2012 - Juvenile Nonfiction - 234 pages

After a short, difficult stint in the US Navy, where I developed paranoid schizophrenia, I lived in several places. I lived in Cleveland, Ohio, and the surrounding area, Woonsocket, Rhode Island, and Boulder, Colorado, before settling back with my parents. I wrote this book while living with my parents in the 1980s. I felt I had a story to tell, and I had no one to talk to. I told my story with words. I really do not always know what is real and what is not. I have good word association skills and like writing a little to try and say a lot. I wrote this book exclusively in bars and diners. I wrote because, though I was around people, I was alone. This is how I could talk to myself. I wrote my feelings about the experiences I had lived through in my life. This book is a window into my heart and soul. I hope these poems will have meaning to you.

Contents

• No Dark Peace: 1
• A World Someday: 2
• Dannys Lost: 3
• Dont Quit: 4
• Nowhere Usa: 5
• Tranquill: 6
• Only One Home: 7
• Taking Credit Gaining Power: 8
• Hopefully Talking: 9
• Not A Winner: 10
• Just Know Why: 11
• A Love: 12
• No Lines: 13
• No Job: 14
• To Sing: 15
• Children Grow: 16
• Just Believe: 17
• Same Mistakes: 18
• Just Caring: 19
• We All Need Help: 20
• Time To Stop: 21
• No Money Needed: 22
• Give More: 23
• Trying To Quit: 24
• They Haunt: 25
• Just Truth: 26
• Overcome: 27
• Talking To Loud: 28
• Forgive Those: 29
• Too Little: 30
• Awaken: 31
• To Be Timid: 32
• Natures Kisses: 33
• Forgive A Few For So Many: 34
• Why Stop A Life: 35
• The March: 36
• Keep Trying: 37
• The Jealous: 38
• To Moody: 39
• The Dating Game: 40
• With Payment: 41
• Whats A Choice: 42
• To Many Ideas: 43
• A Happy Day: 44
• Cant Be Recognized: 45
• No Plan For Home: 46
• In Our Mind: 47
• Our Feelings: 48
• Let Me Forget: 49
• Overcome Just Overcome: 50
• Wrong Information: 51
• Thier Own Thing: 52
• The Top Bouncer: 53
• Try To Give: 54
• Dont Let This Night End: 55
• Western Challenge: 56
• A Little To Often: 57
• Too Sexual: 58
• As Children Grow: 59
• Crime Failure: 60
• High School Truths: 61
• No Hope: 62
• Too Few: 63
• Hopefully Over: 64
• What Is True: 65
• A Peaceful Field: 66
• Shes Mine: 67
• Treasure Time: 68
• Think Of Truth: 69
• What Kind Of Relationship: 70
• Dedication: 71
• No Surprises: 72
• When Youre Right: 73
• Ones Choice: 74
• Worrying: 75
• Coming Of Wisdom: 76
• Take The Chance: 77
• Failure In Sight: 78
• Disturbing: 79
• Someone Proud: 80
• Somethings Senseless: 81
• A Days Toils: 82
• Flying By: 83
• It Can Happen: 84
• A Civil End: 85
• Make Life Happen: 86
• The Lost Life: 87
• To Cherish: 88
• Giving: 89
• Growing Together: 90
• Part Of Me: 91
• A Natures Strength: 92
• The Room: 93
• Carry On: 94
• To Visit Woonsocket: 95
• Growing Together: 96
• Nowhere Usa: 97
• No End Of Taking: 98
• Why Has Life: 99
• Always Running: 100
• A Readers Prize: 101
• Lost Ones Way: 102
• Reaching Goals: 103
• So Many Times: 104
• Without Guidance: 105
• Be Careful: 106
• A Treat: 107
• Whos To Decide: 108
• The Songs Of Nature: 109
• Those Controlled: 110
• Time Goes On: 111
• No Church: 112
• This Man: 113
• How Could Some: 114
• A Childs Determination: 115
• Overcoming: 116
• To Loose Everything: 117
• Why So Many: 118
• In Oneself: 119
• A Portrait Victim: 120
• May Someone Save: 121
• No Dates: 122
• Boulder Girls: 123
• Too Many Years: 124
• Selfishly: 125
• Which Decision: 126
• Why The Failure: 127
• To Comment: 128
• A Path Of Learning: 129
• Cnog: 130
• So Many Truths: 131
• Growing At A Lost: 132
• Cnog The Beginning: 133
• A Psychological Battle: 134
• No More: 135
• The Jibberish: 136
• No More The Weapon: 137
• No Where To Live: 138
• Will The Clock Stop: 139
• A Police Letdown: 140
• A Better Life: 141
• The Mistakes: 142
• Weapons Of Peace: 143
• For The Proud Girl: 144
• A Movement Lost: 145
• Soldier: 146
• A Torn Mind: 147
• So Many Men: 148
• Probably Unhappy: 149
• A Day Or Two: 150
• A Chapel: 151
• The Lonely Job: 152
• A Buisness Calamity: 153
• Forget Nyc: 154
• Civil Obediance: 155
• An Open Heart: 156
• The Prisoner: 157
• State Mental Institution: 158
• A Few Books: 159
• Trapped: 160
• Close The Bar: 161
• To Many Children: 162
• No Clouds: 163
• The Draft: 164
• The Jounalist: 165
• Life Goes On: 166
• Dont Cry: 167
• There Is So Many: 168
• Traveling Thoughts: 169
• Wonderful Feelings: 170
• Understanding OnesSelf: 171
• Survival Skills: 172
• Givng Up: 173
• Dont Give Up: 174
• The End: 175
• To Be Recognized: 176
• Cant Hold: 177
• The Price Of Communicating: 178
• The Math Is Wrong: 179
• To Conquer The Elements: 180
• Till When: 181
• Second Best: 182
• The Cost: 183
• The Report: 184
• To Pass On: 185
• Pray For Life: 186
• Some May Be: 187
• Awarded: 188
• No Challenge: 189
• Home Life: 190
• Cnog: 191
• Impossible To Lead: 192
• Rhode Island: 193
• In Just Thought: 194
• Many Events: 195
• Were All Chosen: 196
• A New Beginning: 197
• Press On: 198
• At Peace: 199
• Learning To Much: 200
• Dangerous Tack: 201
• One To Powerful: 202
• All Can Overcome: 203
• Not To Brave: 204
• Mistaken: 205
• In Touch With Oneself: 206
• Finding Nature: 207
• Wherever It Happens: 208
• Always Alone: 209
• Good Morning: 210
• Scared: 211
• Someone Cares: 212
• Raising: 213
• Lifes Toils: 214
• A Life: 215
• A Long Time: 216
• Senses: 217
• Waiting For A Change: 218
• Witness: 219
• Anyone Can: 220

About the author

I grew up in a small town in New Jersey. I had the typical difficulties in high school. Then I spent some time in the navy. I had some training and worked in the electric shop. However, while serving on a ship, with the situation I found myself in, I developed paranoid schizophrenia.

My life has been a battle to stay on track. I had always dreamed about going to college, but this could not happen for over twenty-five years. I have lived in a few different locations. These were very lonely and difficult times. I did, while still young, move back in with my parents, so far for the duration.

In the 1980s, when this book was written, I never really talked to anyone. Many people were cruel to me. I felt this book was my way of talking. These words mean a lot to me.

Though schizophrenia has stolen my life, I have always tried to contribute to my country, even though there is little an individual can do. I do have my pride, though. Maybe my mind is different, but I like to look at myself as being creative. I might think differently than others, but we are all unique.

Bibliographic information

• Title: All in My Mind and No One Will Listen
• Author: Danny Cole
• Publisher: Inspiring Voices, 2012
• ISBN: 1462402925, 9781462402922
• Length: 234 pages
• Subjects: Juvenile Nonfiction / Poetry / General