A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy

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Crown, Feb 7, 2017 - Biography & Autobiography - 336 pages

The acclaimed New York Times bestseller by Sue Klebold, mother of one of the Columbine shooters, about living in the aftermath of Columbine.

On April 20, 1999, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold walked into Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado. Over the course of minutes, they would kill twelve students and a teacher and wound twenty-four others before taking their own lives.
 
For the last sixteen years, Sue Klebold, Dylan’s mother, has lived with the indescribable grief and shame of that day. How could her child, the promising young man she had loved and raised, be responsible for such horror? And how, as his mother, had she not known something was wrong? Were there subtle signs she had missed? What, if anything, could she have done differently?
 
These are questions that Klebold has grappled with every day since the Columbine tragedy. In A Mother’s Reckoning, she chronicles with unflinching honesty her journey as a mother trying to come to terms with the incomprehensible. In the hope that the insights and understanding she has gained may help other families recognize when a child is in distress, she tells her story in full, drawing upon her personal journals, the videos and writings that Dylan left behind, and on countless interviews with mental health experts.
 
Filled with hard-won wisdom and compassion, A Mother’s Reckoning is a powerful and haunting book that sheds light on one of the most pressing issues of our time. And with fresh wounds from the Newtown and Charleston shootings, never has the need for understanding been more urgent.
 
All author profits from the book will be donated to research and to charitable organizations focusing on mental health issues.

— Washington Post, Best Memoirs of 2016

 

Contents

Theres Been a Shooting at Columbine High School
3
Slivers of Glass
18
Someone Elses Life
32
A Resting Place
49
Premonition
52
Boyhood
57
One Mother to Another
81
A Place of Sorrow
106
Pathway to Suicide Dylans Junior Year
173
Pathway to Violence Dylans Senior Year
207
Collateral Damage
239
A New Awareness
242
Judgment
255
The Wrong Question
268
Knowable Folds
279
Acknowledgments
281

Life with Grief
108
The End of Denial
125
Toward Understanding
149
The Depths of His Despair
151
Fateful Dynamic
165
Notes
285
Resources
293
Index
297
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Sue Klebold is the mother of Dylan Klebold, one of the two shooters at Columbine High School in 1999 who killed 13 people before ending their own lives, a tragedy that saddened and galvanized the nation. She has spent the last 15 years excavating every detail of her family life, and trying to understand the crucial intersection between mental health problems and violence. Instead of becoming paralyzed by her grief and remorse, she has become a passionate and effective agent working tirelessly to advance mental health awareness and intervention.

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